7. This charge utterly incredible and absurd.

Is it not mere madness in my accuser even to

suspect me of such a thing? What, I ask again, could induce me to place

confidence in this man? What trait did I perceive in his character on

which I could rely? He had murdered

his own master; he had proved faithless to his friends; he had violated

his oath; he had blasphemed God, by consulting poisoners and

sorcerers contrary to his Law. And with what

conscience could I send greeting to such a man, whose madness and

cruelty had afflicted not me only, but all the world around me? To be

sure, I was very greatly indebted to him for his conduct, that when

your departed brother had filled our churches with sacred offerings, he

murdered him. For the wretch was not moved by the sight of these his

gifts, nor did he stand in awe of the divine grace which had been given

to him in baptism: but like an accursed and devilish spirit, he raged

against him, till your blessed brother suffered martyrdom at his hands; while he, henceforth a criminal like Cain, was driven from place to place, ‘groaning and trembling,’ to the end that he might follow the example of Judas in his death, by becoming his own executioner, and so bring upon himself a double weight of punishment in the judgment to come.

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Nicene and Post-Nicene Fathers: Series II/Volume IV/Apology to the Emperor/Apologia Ad Constantium/Chapter 7