"Go to your bed, my child," the Doctor said at last. "And go to sleep if you can. You will cry yourself sick."
She gave him a silent kiss, wet with tears, and went away with an aching heart and a wearied frame.
For two hours or more the Doctor continued his miserable walk up and down the study, from the door to the window, from corner to corner, occasionally stopping to rest a tired body which yet had no longing for slumber. He went back over his daughter's life, beginning with the infantile days when he used to send the servant away from the cradle in which she lay, and rock it himself for the pure pleasure of watching her. He remembered how she had expanded into the whole of his heart when her mother died. He thought how solely he had loved her since that bereavement, and how her love for him had grown with her growth and strengthened with every maturing power of her spirit. In the enthusiasm, the confidence of this recollection, he did not doubt at moments but that he could win her back to himself from this misplaced affection. She was so young yet, her heart must be so pliable yet, that he could surely influence her. As this comforting hope stole through him he felt a desire to look at her. Yes, he must see her again before he could get to sleep; he would go gently to her room and gaze at her without waking her. Putting on his slippers, he crept softly up stairs and opened her door without noise. By the light of a dying candle he saw Lillie in her night dress, sitting up in bed and wiping the tears from her cheeks with her hands.
"Papa!" she said in an eager gasp, tremulous with affection, grief and hope.
"Oh, my child! I thought you would be asleep," he answered, advancing to the bedside.
"You are not very angry with me?" she asked, making him sit down by her.
She looked so loving, so eager, so sorrowful that he could not say No.
She drew his head towards her with her wet hands, and gave him a kiss the very gratitude of which pained him.
"But not you," he added, trying to be stern. "You must not write. You must not entangle yourself farther. I want to make inquiries. I must have time in this matter. I will not be hurried. You must not consider yourself engaged, Lillie. I cannot allow it."