This post is part of a special series of articles by blogger and activist, Marcell Shehwaro, describing the realities of life in Syria during the ongoing armed conflict between forces loyal to the current regime, and those seeking to oust it. #Douma4 poster for the campaign to free leading human rights activists and opposition figures kidnapped by Islamist militants. The poster reads: “The one who kidnaps a rebel is a traitor”. For you to understand the situation more accurately, allow me to place you in the place and time it happened, and offer some details. The Time: October 7, 2013. It was the night my friend Abdulwahab Almulla, a rebel and an artist, was kidnapped. It happened during the period when kidnappings became common, before Syrians had ever heard of the Islamic State of Iraq and Syria (ISIS). This was the tenth kidnapping we'd heard of. And this time, we weren't dealing with unknown kidnappers as we were at the beginning of the previous year. The signs clearly pointed to ISIS. In three months, many things had changed. The cameras of the media disappeared. Some men started to grow beards. Others started wearing Afghan garb. Some refused to discuss ISIS while some others exaggerated their support for this group. To learn more about this period, you need to think about what it would mean if all those around you avoided you like the plague, out of the conviction that you, as a rebel, are more likely to be kidnapped than other people; that you have to live on the run, moving from house to house and to Turkey; that your back is completely exposed, and that they probably know your exact movements with great accuracy. The Participants: A group of rebel friends, who have collective memories which protected them during the sad moments of breakdown, and who adapted to the pain they experienced with sarcasm about everything, including themselves. They all had many questions about how we would protect ourselves, and fear for themselves as well as immense sadness for Abdulwahab Almulla. They were losing hope of ever seeing him again: absence would swallow him just as it had devoured Abu Maryam, Samar, Mohammed. . . and others. During this period, the prisons of ISIS were as much of a mystery as the Bermuda Triangle, surrounded by speculation, suspense and secrecy. The Place: A house in Almashhad neighbourhood where we gathered when the electricity was cut off, where we spent time chatting with friends. The question on everyone's lips was: Who is next, after Abdulwahab? Who will be next to be kidnapped and to disappear? This spontaneous question would turn into a painful game, one which you could call sick. We would expect the next kidnapped person to be one of our rebel friends. We would claim to be objective, and ask each other: if you were a dictator, or in the process of becoming one, who would you kidnap? We went through the obvious names. This friend is more likely to get kidnapped because he has values, and would not remain quiet in the face of injustice. Another friend's chances of disappearing are bigger because he is clean, and enjoys the support of the other rebels, who trusted what he said. He's also armed and therefore poses a threat to the ISIS. I was on the list too, because what I was writing could cause me a lot of problems. And this is how we started making lists, at least in our heads, of who would be kidnapped if we were to kidnap the revolution in Aleppo. If we were to expand the painful game to include the whole of Syria, I would have certainly begun the list with Syrian human rights lawyer and civil rights activist Razan Zaitouneh, who has been banned from travelling by the Syrian regime since 2002. She has been ruthless in defending human rights and has repeatedly called upon the rebels to report any violations, even those committed by the opposition armed forces. This is what had happened. Five months ago Razan Zaitouneh, Sameera Khalil, Wael Hammadi and Nadhem were kidnapped from the office of the Violations Documentation Centre, in the town of Douma in Eastern Ghouta, by an unknown armed faction. The statement put out by activists regarding the kidnapping reads: “Razan Zaitouneh is a lawyer, writer and activist, who has worked relentlessly since the turn of the century to defend the rights, freedoms and dignity of our people, however diverse their ideology and political prejudices were. Razan represented a new model for the educated human rights activist, and for Syrian women, in her dedication to her work, her humanity and courage. She was creative, motivated and loved life and people. She is an exemplary model for women, educated people and activists in Syria. Razan's mother, father and sisters have heard nothing about her since she disappeared.