'To think that my spirit will follow you always, always, and yet that it may never, never mingle with yours, will never, never be understood by you!--Alas, poor love!'
Her voice was full of tears and her mouth was drawn with pain.
Ah, do not desert me--do not desert me!' cried the young man, seizing her two hands and half-kneeling at her feet, a prey to overwhelming excitement--'I will never ask anything of you--I want nothing but your pity. A little pity from you is more--far more--to me than passionate love from any other woman--you know it. Your hand alone can heal me, can bring me back to life, can raise me out of the slough into which I have sunk, give me back my faith and free me from the bondage of those shameful things that corrupt me and fill me with horror. Dear--dear--hands!'
He bent over them and pressed his lips to them in a long kiss, abandoning himself with half-closed eyes to the utter sweetness of it.
'I can feel you tremble,' he murmured in an indefinable tone.
She rose abruptly, trembling from head to foot, giddy, paler still than on the morning when they walked together beneath the flower-laden trees. The wind still shook the panes; there was a dull clamour in the distance as of a riotous crowd. The shrill cries borne on the wind from the Quirinal increased her agitation.
'Go, Andrea--please go--you must not stay here any longer. You shall see me some other time--whenever you like, but go now, I entreat you----'
She was as perturbed and agitated as if she had been guilty of some grave fault. She accompanied him to the door of the room. When she found herself alone, she hesitated, not knowing what to do next, still under the sway of her terror. Her temples throbbed, her cheeks and her eyes burned with fierce intensity, while cold shivers ran through her limbs. But on her hands she still felt the pressure of that beloved mouth, a sensation so surpassingly sweet that she wished it might remain there for ever indelible like some divine impress.
She looked about her. The light was fading, things looked shapeless in the shadows, the great Buddha gleamed with a weird pale light. The cries came up from the street fitfully. She went over to a window, opened it and leaned out. An icy wind blew through the street; in the direction of the Piazza dei Termini, they were already lighting the lamps. Across the way, at the Villa Aldobrandini, the trees swayed to and fro, their tops touched with a faint red glow. A huge crimson cloud hung solitary in the sky over the Torre delle Milizie.