Now like a ruined aqueduct I go Unburdened; thou by more fleet ways hast been With Him. Since thou thine own swift road dost know, Thou canst not brook such slow and devious mean.
I slept, and thought a letter came from you-- You did not love me any more, it said. What breathless grief!--my love not true, not true ... I was afraid of people, and afraid Of things inanimate--the wind that blew, The clock, the wooden chair; and so I strayed From home, but could not stray from grief, I knew. And then at dawn I woke, and wept, and prayed, And knew my blessed love was still the same;-- And yet I sit and moan upon the bed For that dream-creature's loss. For when I came (I came, perhaps, to comfort her) she fled. I would be with her where she wanders now, Fleeing the earth, with pain upon her brow.
All night my thoughts have rested in God's fold; They lay beside me here upon the bed. At dawn I woke: the air beat sad and cold. I told them o'er--Ah, God, one thought had fled.
Into what dark, deep chasm this wayward one Has sunk, I scarcely know; I will not chide. O Shepherd, leave me! Seek this lamb alone. The ninety-nine are here. They will abide.
"_NATURE IS THE LIVING MANTLE OF GOD_"--_GOETHE_
O for the time when some impetuous breeze Will catch Thy garment, and, like autumn trees, Toss it and rend it till Thou standest free, And end Thy long secluded reverie!
Still now its beauty folds Thee, and--as she Who kissed Thy garment and had health from Thee-- I feel the sun, or hear some bird in bliss, And Thou hast then my sudden, humble kiss.
Since that with lips which moved in one we prayed, So that God ceased to hear us speak apart, What law irrevocable have we made? How shall He hear a solitary heart
When He did need that we, to have His ear, Should go aside and pray together there With urgent breath? Ah, now I pause and fear-- How shall uprise my lonely, separate prayer?
Upon one hand your kisses chanced to rest: I smiled upon the other hand and said "Poor thing," when you had gone: and then in quest Of pity rose a clamour from the dead-- Some way of mine, some word, some look, some jest Complained they too went all uncoveted ... That night I took these troubles to my breast, And played that you and I, my own, were wed; Those troubles were our child, with eyes of fear,-- A wailing babe, whom I, his mother dear, Must soothe to quiet rest and calm relief, And urge his eyes to sleeping by and by. "O hush," I said, and wept to see such grief; "Hush, hush, your father must not hear you cry."