“I hate you! I think you are the most pigheaded, obstinate, self-satisfied, ignorant creature who ever ruined a great cause.”
He accepted the lash of her words without any sign of offence,--seemed, indeed, inclined to treat them reflectively.
“Come,” he protested, “you have wasted a lot of breath in abusing me. Why not justify it? Tell me the story of yourself and those who are associated with you in this secret correspondence with Germany? If you are working for a good end, let me know of it. You blame me for judging you, for maintaining a certain definite poise. You are not reasonable, you know.”
“I blame you for being what you are,” she answered breathlessly. “If you were a person who understood, who felt the great stir of humanity outside your own little circle, who could look across your seas and realise that nationality is accidental and that the brotherhood of man throughout the world is the only real fact worthy of consideration--ah! if you could realise these things, I could talk, I could explain.”
“You judge me in somewhat arbitrary fashion.”
“I judge you from your life, your prejudices, even the views which you have expressed.”
“There are some of us,” he reminded her, “to whom reticence is a national gift. I like what you said just now. Why should you take it for granted that I am a narrow squireen? Why shouldn’t you believe that I, too, may feel the horror of these days?”
“You feel it personally but not impersonally,” she cried. “You feel it intellectually but not with your heart. You cannot see that a kindred soul lives in the Russian peasant and the German labourer, the British toiler and the French artificer. They are all pouring out their blood for the sake of their dream, a politician’s dream. Freedom isn’t won by wars. It must be won, if ever, by moral sacrifice and not with blood.”
“Then explain to me,” he begged, “exactly what you are doing? What your reason is for being in communication with the German Government? Remember that the dispatch I intercepted came from no private person in Germany. It came from those in authority.”
“That again is not true,” she replied. “I would ask for permission to explain all these things to you, if it were not so hopeless.”