People were stooping. They had the door on the ground and Harold and a man were stooping and walking backwards over the door, carrying something. Presently there was more stooping, and then Harold and Robert and three men were carrying the door between them and walking as if the door were very heavy. Whatever was happening? Hilda came running to Rosalie. She was crying. “Rosalie, you’re to keep away. You’re not to come into the house yet. I’ll tell you when you can come. Go and stay in the garden till I tell you.”
Rosalie wandered about by the drive. Whatever was the matter? Robert appeared with his bicycle. Harold came out after him. “Go to Ashborough station with it, you understand. See the station master. Tell him it must be sent off at once. Tell him what has happened.” Robert was sniffling and nodding. Away went Robert, bending over the handle bar of his bicycle, riding furiously.
Evening began to come on. Rosalie was wandering at the back by the stables when Hilda came out through the kitchen door. “Rosalie, I’ve been looking for you. Rosalie, Anna is--dead.”
They went in through the kitchen. On the big kitchen clothes rail before the fire were clothes of Anna’s. They were muddy and sopping wet and steam was rising off them.
“Ran to her mother to cry.” That’s a thing not to pass over without a stop. Lucky, lucky Rosalie to have one to whom to take her grief! You can imagine her small heart’s twistings by those days of sorrow, of terrifying and mysterious and dreadful things that the child never could clearly have understood; of grief, of mourning; of atmosphere most eerie made of whispers, of tiptoe treading, of shrouded windows, of conversations, as of conspirators, shut off with “Not in front of Rosalie.” “Hush, not now. Here’s Rosalie.”
Yes, twisting stuff that; but in that “ran to her mother to cry” something that much more dreadfully twists the heart than those. Those were for Rosalie--they are for all--but frets upon the sands of time that each most kind expunging day, flowing from dawn to sunset like a tide, heals and obliterates. There are no common griefs, and death’s a common grief, that can be drawn above that tide’s highwater mark. But there’s that sentence: “Rosalie ran to her mother to cry.” That’s of the aching voids of life, deep-seated like a cancer, that no tide reaches. That twists the heart to hear it because--O happy Rosalie!--the aching thing in life is not having where you can take your weariness. Your successes, your triumphs, there are a hundred eyes to shine with yours in those. Oh, it is the defeats you want where to tell--some one you can take the defeats to, the failures, the lost things; the lamps that are gone out, the hopes that are ashes, the springs that spring no more, the secret sordid things that eat you up, that hedge you all about, that draw you down. Those! To have some one to tell those to! Yes, there’s a thought that comes with living: Let who may receive a man’s triumphs; to whom a soul can take its defeats, that one has the imprint of Godhood. They walk near God.