Me and the Cult Leader (Aganai) is a 2020 Japanese documentary film. The film follows the director, Atsushi Sakahara, a victim of the 1995 Tokyo Subway Sarin Gas Attack, and Araki Hiroshi, a current executive member of the doomsday cult Aleph (previously Aum Shinrikyo) behind the attack, as they travel to their hometowns in the Kyoto prefecture. It premiered at the Sheffield Doc Fest as part of its Ghosts and Apparitions strand.
Plot
In 1995, Aum Shinrikyo, a Tokyo-based Doomsday cult, conducted the largest terrorist attack in Japan's history. 13 people were killed and 6000 people were injured as a result of Aum's sarin gas attack perpetrated on three crowded Tokyo subway trains during rush hour on the morning of March 20, 1995. Director Atsushi Sakahara was on one of those cars and has suffered lifelong damage to his nervous system and effects of PTSD as a result. Twenty-years later, Atsushi decides to face the cult.
The film starts after a year spent negotiating the terms of their meeting. Atsushi and Araki, the PR agent and current leader and the cult, finally come together in person. The men begin their journey at the organization's facilities in Tokyo; the space consists of a dojo and residence. Renunciates live and work at the minimalist facilities, practicing an ascetic lifestyle which seeks to limit distractions. Their clothing and food are monochromatic and left intentionally bland; the living space small and shared. Portraits of Aum's leader Asahara, who was on death row at the time of shooting and has since been executed, hang in every room. Throughout the tour, Atsushi questions Araki on the cult's practices, demands, and ideologies.
Atsushi and Araki travel by bullet train to Kyoto, then switching, upon arrival, to board a local train to travel to Atsushi's hometown. As the men pass the stop for Araki's grandmother, uncannily close to Atsushi's own hometown, Araki speaks about her, to whom he was very close. It begins to rain and Araki wipes away tears as the train pulls out of his station. Atsushi brings Araki to his country home. The two discuss religion and how to treat religious principles. Aum's apocalyptic obsession and terrorism stemmed from warped interpretations of "legitimate" religions (namely Western mysticism and Indian Buddhism). Araki believes there is finite suffering in the world and if he were to suffer more, someone else would suffer less. "But do you feel responsible for the suffering Aum has caused?" asks Atsushi.
Atsushi asks Araki more about his family and his childhood. We learn that when Araki was born, he was very sickly and his parents spent a lot of time and money taking care of him. "Why do you think they did that?" Atsushi asks. "Out of a sense of duty," Araki replies, then telling Atsushi about his younger brother who was misdiagnosed with cancer while at university. "I felt completely powerless," Araki tells Atsushi: "I was studying humanities at the time. I could not be helpful and I did not understand why it was happening to my brother. When the cult leader Asahara gave a lecture at Kyoto University later that year, I joined. Later I renounced the world and left my family. It was very difficult, especially for my grandmother who was worried about me."
Their journey takes them to their Alma Mater, Kyoto University, where Araki first saw Shoko Asahara speak. It takes them up to Mount Hiei, a place of many Shinto myths, where they talk about the introduction of Buddhism to Japan. It takes them through the town Araki spent his childhood in a makeshift sightseeing tour. The men go on to meet Atsushi's elderly parents at a cafe. Atsushi's father, Takeshi Sakahara, is a direct and serious police retiree; Takeshi questions Araki on his involvement with the cult and describes his experiences as the father of a victim. Takeshi reveals Atsushi's long-ended marriage, of which the audience has yet to learn. Takeshi condemns Aum unequivocally, telling Araki point-blank that the cult's actions and Araki's beliefs are wrong. After the meal, Atsushi and Araki prepare to part ways at the train station. As they say goodbye, Atsushi pulls out a photo. It's an image of his ex-wife who was once involved in the cult. "Did you know her?" Atsushi asks. Araki takes a look at the photo and shakes his head.